Hello there, and welcome back to another instalment of my BSL level 6 journey.
As you would have seen from the topic line – I failed. Not my entire course to be clear, but I failed my presentation. Of course it’s not called a failure, it’s called “unsupported” which really is just a nice way to describe failing.
In one of my last emails about level 6, you may have seen that I failed another one of my assessments, but as I re-did it the same day and passed I never really saw it as a failure.
But this was a failure and, even worse, it’s my first failure in BSL. From levels 1-3 I have passed every exam without needing to re-sit, and all of my clips for level 6 were accepted, so failing in BSL is an entirely new experience.
For anyone wondering WHY I failed, the reasons were:
- In my rush to give as much information about my topic as possible, I didn’t take the time to properly consider how it would look for a deaf person. Which, apparently, was quite confusing.
- I was very fast. This, again, is due to wanting to give loads of information, but also because I was quite nervous. In fact I was told to slow down within the first 10 seconds of starting.
So how did I react? Well, when my tutor told me “it’s bad news, the clip is unsupported” I did what any student would do. Put on a brave face, say it’s fine and I understand, then go to the bathroom and have a little cry.
Honestly, I was gutted and disheartened.
I hadn’t realised that I had failed, so I thought that all I had left was my self-evaluations and then I was done, so in my head I was so close to getting that level 6 qualification. But that’s not the case, so it’s taken me a few days to process the next steps – which is to figure out a new topic and then repeat the lengthy process of creating another presentation for next month’s class.
I’m trying not to beat myself up about it too much, and I keep telling myself that it’s not the end of the world. I just need to hope that I don’t fail it again next month (If I can ever think of a new topic to look at!)
You’ll have to wait til next month to see if I pass it – fingers crossed!